Deep thoughts

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I’d like to call this post, “blogging for no reason, except that I feel like I want to”. I’ve been in this weird place that I think sometimes people go through in their early thirties. “what am I even doing with this life of mine?”. Then I go through the checklist of the obvious: Family life? Never been better. Career? Very happy with how that’s been progressing in 2015. Balancing life? CHECK. So what could be missing? I haven’t quite figured that out yet, but I think it may have something to do with feeling like I may possibly be capable of doing great things. What those things may be? No clue. I love the idea of being creative on the side as a business and feeling entrepreneurial, but what does that even look like for me? Unfortunately I haven’t stumbled upon it yet, and I’m not about to go looking. That never works. You end up working towards something you’re not even passionate about, and 3, 2, 1, burnout. So, I’m just going to keep plugging away at life as I know it, and see where it takes me.

Blogging, although I have felt like it’s a bit of a dying art lately, has been at the forefront as at least a place where I could start. My girlfriends are so sick of hearing me say this next sentence, but I’ve been listening to a lot of Podcasts lately, and those have helped me to at least recognize that there are so many amazing, creative, smart women out there that are figuring it out one day at a time, just like me. And they are doing SUCH amazing things. Clarity and perspective, my friends. That is what technology + the commute to work has provided me with.

The good news is, I’ve learnt a few things about myself in the last little while, podcasts notwithstanding. I’ve had some opportunities lately to do creative work in a field that I always wanted to break into, and these opportunities are things I would have died for a couple of years ago. Turns out I don’t love creating for other people/companies under their restrictions, just for the notoriety. It always ALWAYS feels like a chore. So I plan to be intentional about what I take on in that field in the future and make sure it’s something I love. I have a fun opportunity coming up that I can’t talk about yet, but I think it’s going to be a perfect fit. Not at all demanding, no real rules, just creativity. I don’t even have to post on anyone else’s blog, which is a big winner in my books. And it’s not going to take up a lot of space in my craft room, which makes me feel so at peace just thinking about it. Clutter stresses me, y’all.

I never say y’all. Why did I just type it?

Also, fun fact – I really enjoy writing, so I think this blogging thing may be a way for me just to work through a few interests I may think I have, and see where it takes me. Maybe the things I think I’m interested are just pathways to the real deal.

I know. Deep.

Signing off for now,

-T

6 thoughts on “Deep thoughts

  1. Cool post. i can relate to a lot of what you’re saying. I wonder, too. Good luck with the new thing coming your way, I’m sure it’ll be great. Michelle t

  2. I’m in the early 30s funk, too. Maybe we can go through it together – y’all! 🙂

    PS Props to you for recognizing that designing for companies just isn’t for you. I always felt the same way (and wondered why/if I was the only one)! Maybe one day when I start scrapping again, we can have a scrap date!

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